I hate making choices

How lovely life would be if you are not given any choices . Well , it seems that this week is the last week for me to walk to school . And also as a Bedok kid . I will miss all of my memories at Bedok Reservoir . I will miss taking bus 60 to school . I will miss walking to school alone . I will miss being chased by big dogs when otw to factory . I will miss taking bus with yuni . I will miss taking bus with aron . I will miss walking to school laughing my ass out with yuni and aron . I miss walking to school as we complained about the weather and sweat like pigs . I miss walking to school as the 3 of us fought . I miss rushing to school . I miss rushing aron . I miss yuni rushing me . I MISS EVERYTHING ! Although I will be able to do this kinds of things whenever I come back to Bedok , but I want to do this everyday ! ! ! How I wish I can stay by your side everyday without being separated by you . But im sorry dad . I did'nt mean to hurt you but I just want to stay far far away from your wife . I need some peace for the moment . I promise you that I will come back to you .

GOOD BYE BEDOK . . .
hello tampines

. . .

I tried to forget you . I swear I thought that I've forget bout you . But apparently , I've not . Why ? I've always tried to keep forgetting you all this years . But can't . Seriously , why ? I just hope that we can still be friends like a few years back . We would greet each other when we meet . We would laugh together when talking about the past . I really miss the good o'l times friend . :)

f**k you women !

You said that after you married our dad , we will be your flesh and blood too ? hah ! JOKE SIA ! We do accept your son as our flesh and blood . But u ! Huh . . . Never ! Not even once I will accept you lah eh ! After everything that you have done to us , and u expect us to accept u ? Huh . If we are really your flesh and blood , would you make us starve ?Would u make us soo poor that u did'nt give us a single cent from the day you live with us ? Would u make us suffer ? Would u even make us soo scared to celebrate our birthday as a family ? And most impotantly , Would you distrust us ? NOT EVEN ONCE we made something to make u distrust us ! NOT EVEN ONCE . . . NOT EVEN ONCE LA BITCH ! And now , what is the change that suddenly made u distrust us ?! Im sure you know that my sis was away for a holiday trip and I didn't go along coz you don't even GIVE A DAMN that my passport has expired ! ! ! You wan soo much to get rid of me , then fine ! Renew my passport and I'll follow my aunt for a trip overseas . And obviously you should know that I was at home coz I reached home at 12am and I switched on EVERY SINGLE LIGHTS IN THE HOUSE ! ! And your room was also lighted up . So ?! It cannot be that I bring a guy home right ! My room door was open widely from the time I get into my room and I only closed it till I had freshened up ! I locked the door coz my room is in a mess and I had wanted to clean it up only in the morning since I was tired . Just because I locked my door , you want to falsely accuse me that I've bring home a guy ?! WTF !!! No wonder my dad asked me if I am in a relationship . Yeah its true that I like a guy but that does not mean that im gonna bring home a guy right ! ! ! I've told dad that I wanna concentrate on my studies and soo . . . What's the problem ?! I swear that you are damn f**kin stupid lor ! You can knock the door , but you chose not to . You can just take my room key behind the door , you don't want . You can choose to make use of technology and call my phone , but you choose not to . You have problems with climbing the stairs as you are involved in an accident , but yet, you choose to climb the stairs and putting in your hands inside my room to reach the window's lock . EH ! YOU THINK YOU TALL AH !? Eh hello ! My sister and I am taller than you lah . When you have short legs , Its soo obviously that u have short hands . And it make sense that it's impossible to for you to reach it . You have only yourself to blame for being short . And just because you can't reach it , it does not give u the rights to talk bad bout me la SIAL !!! NABEH ! CB ! F**KER !

concert

Yesterday went to Mr Yap's Reminiscence concert that he performed . Its a Maha Bodhi Alumni Band that performed . And I SWEAR that the songs are all nicely played . Its very smooth . It was held at the Singapore Conference Hall . All those who are going to the concert have to meet up at Bedok public phone booth . We are supposed to meet at 5.30 pm but only Joey , Puteri , Me , Yuni ,Wei Jian , Raimov , Zuhairi and Aron were in time . The others were late . The last one was always our DM , Ahmad . While waiting for him , a lot of things happened Between me , Yuni , Bryan and Aron . Not gonna elaborate it . Waited and waited and waited for Ahmad till arnd 6.30pm -.- He arrived , everyone headed to MRT together . Reached there and waited for Mr Poh to give us ticket and everyone thot that concert started at 7.00pm but end up concert start at 7.30pm . Time already , we went inside and a lot of things happened before concert start . Everyone was looking dead but luckily me , Yuni and Bryan managed to smuggle tidbits inside Yuni's bag . During intermission somethings happen .

BLAH . .

BLAH . . .

BLAH . . .

Concert over around 9.30pm then we all purposely walked infront of the stage and shout "FELIX ! ! ! " And Aron was like "Kai Ming ! ! !" . Haha . Then Mr yap threatened us . He shouts , "If you guys say Felix one more time , you watch out on Monday ! " hah . Then outside took picture at lvl 2 and Mr Poh was watching us from lvl 1 . Hah . Then BYE-ed him and everyone breaks up into groups . So , I just can't help it but I swear I was super hungry . I only ate Hotdog Prata at 1.30 pm . I was scolding Bryan for wasting my time and making me more hungry . Then Zuhairi also said that he was hungry so Yuni , Me , Aron , Zuhairi , Raimov and Bryan walked to find food and I was scolding Raimov for making me walk further than Lau Pa Sat till we reached Raffels Place MRT . Since gt Mc Donald's , we ate there then Aron , Zuhairi and Raimov made me yank . They are damn disgusting lor . Then went home and texted Aron , Mummy and Raimov . Then finished texting Raimov and Mummy , still texting Aron . Fought with him and then on comp then suddenly comp gt prob . Waiting for it to switch off , I felt asleep and woke up at 5am and switch off comp . and done . That's all . Bye

good news

GOOD NEWS GOOD PEOPLE !!!

!!! I'VE QUITED !!!

Haha . Yup . Thats a good news . Well , how do I do it ? Haha . Well , you may not believe it but I actually dream that my senior came in my dream and he talked to me and he actually made me quit !! Haha . I know it seems kind of impossible and wierd . But it actually works . Hey senior , thanks a lot . I know that I should thank you in person . But I just do not have tha guts to say it to you . Well , I actually don't know if you know bout it but im sure that you know bout it right ? Well , once again . . . Thanks a lot !!! :D

In LOVE

IM IN LOVE !!!
How sweet life is to be in Love !!

leave me then

You just don't seem to appreciate everthing that i've done for you . But why am I soo stupid to keep helping you and keep being hurt by you again and again ? I guess that im the most stupid person that have ever existed on Earth huh ? I have done everything that I can for you . I have sacrificed everything JUST for you . Bt seriously , what do I get back in return from you other than your fcuk face ? After everything that I've done for you , this is how you repay me ?Gheezzz . Thanks a lot yah . Eh . Aku setakat isap jek , kau nk kecoh tu apasal ? I have my own reasons for doing that ok !!! If only you are in my shoes , only then you will really understand my situation . Kalau kau tk tau pape , then diam diam je la . Tak menyusahkan diri kau per . Keadaan kau ngan aku lain . kau anak family kesayangan sia . Mesti ah semua benda sempurna . Aku lain . Jadi , apa yang kau tk happy ngan aku skrg ? Aku isap pun ada ajak kau ? Ada ajak yg lain ? Tak ada kn , ahh beh ? Tak menyusahkan per . Kalau kau tk suka berkawan ngan org cam aku , kau bleh angkat kaki skrg juga ah . Aku tk heran ah . Aku lebih rela ditinggal kwn mcm kau daripada ditikam dari belakang . Kau pikir aku tak ada perasaan kepe ? Kau tau tk yang cara kau ckp semua ni , cam kau nk aku angkat kaki . Kalau kau nk bobal pun , bobal btl2 ah . Tak perlu nak perli aku . Do you know that sometimes , when you talk , you never even stop for a second and think . And yeah . You have always done that to me and the others again and again . It really hurt us . And im 100% sure you that don't even know that you hurt us .

addicted

Oh Yeah !!! Im addicted to you alright ?! :) Heezzz . Its been a long time since i've been having this kind of feeling . And i don't like it . Y ? Coz you will keep thinking bout him and everytime you tried to think bout something else , you can't he will just keep appearing in your brain . And by always thinking bout him , you just can't seem to get things right and you keep doing everything wrong . And yeah . Im missing you again and again . My hp is spoilt and i can't contact you . Huhu . :(

bored+sick+tired

1. Vania Azalia[Drum Major]

2. Ahmad Adham[Drum Major]

3. Zuhairi[Head of Logistics]

4. Si Ling[Band Major]

5. Li Zhen [Head of Welfare]

6. Sheau Qin [Head of Quarter Master]

7. Zi Jing [???]

8. Bryan Er [Head of Historian]

9. ME !

10. Adrian Luah [Head of Librarian]

I took a baby pictures of all the committee members and majors except for Haslinda , Amelia and Jonathan . Try to figure out who is who if i dont type down their names . :)

4th June 2010 - Friday

I had not been having enough sleep . Since Friday . On Friday after band , all of us had Committee and SL meeting from 5.30pm-7.30pm . Talktalktalk regarding band . Sit at bubble tea with Syahidah and Yuni . Then took bus and went home . Chat on MSN with Amelia and must make new games before 12 midnight to tell Si Ling our games ideas . Emailed Amelia the games and switch off comp cant sleep so decide to watch TV with sis . Slept ant arnd 2+ .

5th June 2010 - Saturday

Woke up at arnd 8am+ . And I think that I woke up too early ? Coz was waiting for the time to pass by is like hell for me . Was really bored at home . So , as the clock strikes 11am , Yuni msged that she is meeting me at my house bustop . So , it was already 11.15am and texted her im walking towards my house bustop . While I was wearing my shoe , she called me say that she left something at home and is going back home and take her stuffs . So , waited for her as watched for bus no. 60 passed and she have not yet arrived . so , when she arrived , waited for bus and tapped in and sat . Saw Sheau Qin took the same bus as us but she didn't saw us . So , waited for everyone and ALL OF THEM WERE LATE !!! Arrgh !!! Only me , Yuni , Sheau Qin , Germaine and Yu Shen is just in time . So , all of us went to buy stuffs at Sheng Song till 3+ . All the girls + Yu Shen went off to eat at KFC and eat . We then meet Ahmad and Aron and went off our separate ways at 5+ . so , i went home . Did some UIC stuffs and slept at arnd 1+ .

6th June 2010 - Sunday

Was woken up by Ahmad's msg at arnd 7+ . Was supposed to meet at 1pm but he woke me up soo early . Haiz . So texted Ahmad and Aron all the way . I thot that we are all meeting at 1.30 but was wrong . So , I was late ! Heeh . Si Ling then called me while I was inside the bus and i already know that i was late and she reminded me i was late . haha . So , meet them at the photocopy shop to laminate their baby pictures . Collect all of their pictures and off to meet mum . She then took me and sis to Tampines as sis wanna buy shirts for her trip to Malaysia . Then went to bedok at Mr Teh Tarik and eat . After eating , then went home and started doing UIC stuffs till 12.30am .

7th June 2010 - Monday

Woke up at 5.30am coz had to get everything ready since its the Band Outing that all of the CMs ans SLs organized . Went out at 7.15 . Met yuni at my house bustop and she helped me carry the pail . Reached inter Mac Donald and saw Raimov with his lappy . Sat beside him and watched his videos . Damn cute lor . I mean Nini NOT him . HAHA . So , all Committee Members and Section Leaders went to ECP and set up games . The girls took pails of water as the boys are lazy . As the pails of water is too heavy , we had to call the boys to help us but only Wei Jian and Yu Shen came to help us as Raimov went to the bustop to meet Ahmad and the rest of the band . blahblahblah . Me , and Aron then decided to went home at 9.50pm . And yuni tagged along . Aron then asked yuni to walk infront and he talked to me about his problems . How i wish if i can help him with his problems . Hmm . . . We then meet up with Wei Jian . Then saw Anwar and Yu Shen . We walked for 1hr 30mis before we reached the bustop opposite CHIJ at Marine Parade . Reached inter at 11pm and took bus at arnd 11.15pm . Me , Aron and Yuni took the same bus and i fell asleep for a while while yuni just look like shes going to fall down any minute and Aron is sleeping . The 3 of us look soo dead . Haha . Reached my stop . Said bye2 to Yuni and Yuni woke Aron up . Waved to him and walked home . And my phone is dead . Do be patient with me if you text me . My phone is spoiled so , i have to adapt with my spoiled phone .

MISS YOU PPL ! MEET UP SOON AYE ? :)))
Was really not in a good mood yesterday but thanks to Syahidah , Yuni and Fera , they cheer me up !! :)
Haha . THanks to yuni and syahidah , they mede me laugh like hell yest with Bryan's stupidness and clumsiness .
And thanks to Fera coz i talked with her ! Haha , At last ! I could not really recognise her voice at first and eventually , i managed to adapt to it . Was disturbing her .

someone ! anyone ! save me !

Well ... The pictures says all . IM BORED . IM SICK . IM TIRED .

2nd post

Just wanna share with you people this sweet message bout your true friends:) ;

If one day you feel like crying , call me .
I can't promise that I will make you laugh .
But I can cry with you .

If one day you want to runaway , don't be afraid to call me .
I promise I won't ask you to stop but I can run with you .

If one day you don't want to listen to anyone , call me .
I promise to be there for you but also promise to remain quiet .

But one day if you call and there is no answer , come fast to see me , perhaps I need you .

Upon reading this short note about friendship , I hope you ppl really will treasure your friendships .

Do you think that you treasure them deep enough ?

Well , frankly speaking , I don't think I have treasure them deep enough . But I promise that I will learn . I really will for all of our sake . Sisters , I really love you girls . Forgive me for all my wrong doings . You girls are the most bestest friend that i've ever had .

When I am feeling down , you ppl have never stop being there for me and supporting me all the way .
When I fall , you ppl will always pick me up again .
When I felt like giving up , you ppl have always been reminding me never to give up .
When I have no one to turn to , you ppl are the only ones that would be my listenting ear and my helping shoulder .
Therefore , I would like to really thank you girls . Although there is alot more things to type bout you pll , but i just think that it's better if I just stop here .
Thanks a lot girls ! :)

@]>-%---
A Rose especially for you ppl . . .

ass holes

What is wrong with both of you people ?! What is it that you are not happy with me ? Must you keep telling everyone about me ?! Might as well you just make an announcement to the whole word right ?! Eh ! Please ah . Kau lelaki ke pompan sia ? Kalau kawan pompan kau yang ckp pasal ni , tak pasal ah sia !! Eh ! Tapi ni kau !!!! Sial ah !!!! Kau lelaki ke pompan ???!!! Nk bobal macam makcik-makcik kaypo tu apasal ?!!?!?!?!?!?!? Pergi SEX CHANGE OPERATION sudah lah eh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Eh . Seriously ah . If you Want to talk about ppl , you can just talk infront of my face wad !! Why must you tell ppl . Wad ?! Cannot keep your mouth shut ah ?! Need me to seal it for you ???????!!!!!!!!!!!!

reasons

"EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON" .
Yup . That's true . I totally agreed with the sentence . I just do not know what is happening to all of us . I just felt that something is missing . But its just that i don't know what is it .
. . . . . . .
skip skip
. . . . . .
What is happening to me ? Why i cant just erase you out of my memories ? Why is it soo difficult for me to just forget you ? I thought that i could just accept you and forget you when we are over . But apparently , i was wrong . Okay ! I admit defeat ! I lose . . . You Win . . . Happy ?! But must you keep coming after my life ? Eh . Please la . Leave me alone can ? Although during the June holidays you will make me miss you , but please . Try not to contact me on my phone , my friends or my house can ? Maybe , if you do this , I may forget you during the holidays . Ohya . I miss talking to you at night as you sing for us . I really miss your voice and jiwangs . :) But I just can't call you anymore . :'(
T.T

Nur Quraishya Relfera
Nur Syahidah
Yuni Ardilla
Liana Johari
Nur Hidayah
Nur Syafiqah
Im gonna miss you girls . Meet up during June Holidays yeah ? ! :D

take care

Take care Bryan[brabra] , Ryan[useless son] , Adrian[Adriana] and Vania ! Have a safe trip to and fro Wuhan . Dont miss me ! :)

Was surfing the net when I found Greyson Chance sang Lady Gaga's song ; Paparazzi
and Alyssa Bernal's bloopers + she sang Train's song ; Hey Soul Sister
Enjoy !



CLAPS for Greyson Chance and Alyssa Bernal !!!!
*clapclap* :D

schedule

Band has resumed and we are given schedule for all the band practice .
the schedule are shown below ;
25/5/10-tues 1430-1830[band pract]
27/5/10-thur 0700-0900[selected students for pri 6 performance]
'' '' 1430-1830[band pract]
01/6/10-tues 0800-1700[band pract]
04/6/10-fri 0800-1700 [leadership camp for Commitee Members and Sectional Leaders at Bedok Town
05/6/10-sat 0800-1700 [leadership camp for CM and SL at Bedok Town]
07/6/10-mon 0900-2200 [band outing]
08/6/10-tue 0800-1700 [band pract]
11/6/10-fri 0800-1700 [band pract]
22/6/1o-tue 0800-1800 [band pract]
25/6/10-fri 0800-1800 [band pract]
30/6/10-wed 1300-1800 [SYF Opening Ceremony Rehearsal 2010]
01/7/10-thu 1400-1900 [SYF Opening Ceremony Rehearsal 2010]
02/7/10-fri 1300-1900 [SYF Opening Ceremony Rehearsal 2010]
03/7/10-sat 0800-2100 [SYF Opening Ceremony 2010]
well . . .
Thats all for the schedule . . .
Btw . . .
CONGRATS to AHMAD and JONATHAN as
AHMAD is the ADM[assistant drum major] and
JONATHAN is the ABM[assistant band major]

stupid librians

Well . i really hate bedok librarians ! ! ! eh ! we are just there to study ! we did not even disturb you guys wad ? so . . . what for you guys wan to disturb us . i know larh dat you people hate Ping Yians . But can at least talk to us politely wad rather than making us hate you guys and make us hate you librarians . the more you hate us . the more we will make your life miserable la suckers . FUCK YOU !!!

Mid Year !!!!!

!!! LAST PAPER !!!
Monday is the last paper for the Mid Year Examinations . *sights* Not yet ready as its only left with Mathematics paper 2 and F&N . So . . . Currently at home blogging instead of studying . Whad do you expect me to do at home alone only hearing my beloved daddy and step mum fighting . I might as well leave the house or plug in earpiece inside my ears . My real mummy , sissy and younger brother is currently at the swimming pool as im here stuck in my room . well . . . I just wanna wish you people . . .
GOOD LUCK

to Khairul

WELL KHAIRUL ...
JUST ACCEPT IT THAT I'M HOT AND YOU'RE NOT . JUST ADMIT IT THAT YOU ARE JEALOUS . AND YEAH . YOUR NAME HAS BEEN ERASED FROM MY BAG . I'VE BEEN SCRUBBING MY BAG AND AT LAST YOUR NAME IS GONE . AND THANKS TO YOU , MY BAG IS WHITE AGAIN . :)
I'M HOT !

"LAST LONG" LAH EHK

You know how it feels like when at a point of time , you felt very happy ... But at another point of time , you suddenly felt shattered . Well , im sure most of you have ever felt how painful it is am i right ? Well , this is exactly what im experiencing . I thot that with 'her' getting far away from us , we will be happier . But the truth cheated me . There is another 'her' who has just joined us . Who invited her ? Well , no one ... She invited herself to be with us . THICK SKINNED ! ! ! With you around us everytime , we are never happy . lets just skipp this .

You thot that I would be hurt when i saw you being together with her . Well ... Im sorry . Im not hurt at all . Arter all , i know very well that she's a big flirt and i dun knw and dun cre if she know about our past . Haha . Thank you soo much coz what you are doing is actually an eye opener for me . These kinds of things actually teach me how to forget about this kinds of things . But not to hate coz hating SUCKS . Ohya . And ...
HAPPY 10th YEAR ANNI ... Its been a great pleasure knowing you ...

U promised me that u will change . But u lied to me again and again . i've known you for 6 years but only after you have known a guy older than you , you suddenly changed . What happened ? So what if a guy older than you like you ? Whats the big deal ???!!!! I just dun get it why you must suddenly change ? As days went by , your attitude are just making me hate you more . And in the first place , DO YOU EVEN REGARD ALL OF US AS YOUR FRIENDS ? You may say you do , but we dont . When you stead with your first love , without my ex telling me , i would'nt know that you stead with him for 3 months already . Eh . Kelakar kepe ? Da 3 bulan lebih aru kitaorg dpt tahu . Sial ah ! Abeh skrg kau in contact ngan lelaki tu , yg kau suka dia semua , kau tk blg kitaorg . Kalau laki tu tk msg aku , blg aku semua benda n mintak tlg aku , aku tk rasa kau akan in contact dgn dia mcm kau in contact nagn dia skrg . Eh ingat ah , matair bukan selamanya lah . Tapi , kwn sejati selamanya . Kau jgn nk lupa psl ni semua . AND AFTER ALL THAT I HAVE DONE FOR YOU , THERE'S NOT EVEN ONCE WHEN YOU THANK ME ABOUT THIS .

forgive me

to my dear sisters . im soo sorry for abandoning you girls the whole week before SYF . I really dont mean it especially when there is some sort of probles going on and we are having band practices the whole week . Im really sorry . Since SYF have ended , i think that we will have some resting time for us to rest . I will then make it up to u people aites ? love you people always .

happy birthday

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY ARON !!!
Its a pleasure knowing you for 3 years already .
Stay happy always !!!

Glory

GOLD!!!!
10th APRIL 2010
is the day we regained back our glory . That is the day that i will never ever forget in my whole life . Band , I'm really proud of you people . Someone just give me a tight slap telling me that this is not a dream . i would really like to thank these people ;

Mr Poh ; thank you soo much for everything that you have sacrificed for us . And thank you for believing in us though there are a lot of obstacles along the way , but you have never once given up on us . I would also like to thank you for giving me one more chance for me to really change myself and being a part of the band family . If you would to throw me out of band , I would not have feel how it is to be part of a GOLD BAND . And once again , i would like to thank you once again . :ppppppp

Mr Yap ; thank you soo much to you too for your patience . And as always , you are ''handsome'' .

Band , Angklung and Modern Dancers teachers ; thank you too for your never ending support . :)

PSG ; Thanks a bomb for all of your die hard support . without you people , i don't think the band can strive on till this far . Thank you soo much !!!!! I LOVE YOU !!!! :D

Uncle Ali ; Thank you soo much for always making us full and also ensuring that the band have enough food and preparing soo much scrumptious food for us . andandand ... your mee siam rules !!!

Mdm Shanti ; thanks a lot for believing in band that we can do it ! and also thanks for your never ending support .

Mr Gabriel Wee & Mr Glyn Chew ; thanks a lot for your support towards band .

My Dear Beloved Section ; without your supports , i don't think that i would be able to go this far and loving this band this much and deep . i really love you guys . please , do not leave the section .
My Dear Loved Family . Thank you soo much to my both biological and step mummy , both biological and step daddy , sissy and my three brothers . i love you people . thank you soo much for being there for me at some part of time when i need someone to talk to . i love you peeps .

My Dear Graduating Seniors ; truthfully , you people rocks my socks ! you guys are the best . I LOVE YOU GUYS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDD


GLORY ARE MEANT TO BE FOREVER ...